Lonely Night Again

I am seriously very happy last night when I get to be accompanied by you for one entire night.
I feel like "You finally belong to me!"

Just when I thought this week's paper has ended for you, you would have more time for me.

Nonetheless... You are still studying with your classmates thru the nite.
I'm really feeling very neglected.

Although we spent the whole nite together yesterday, I really thought I could expect more. Or rather, you would give me more. But when I saw how lethargic and restless you were when we were hanging around the void deck, my heart ache. I thought I should let you go home and take some rest. You are really tired. And that's when my heart sank.

Everytime during your exams period, I really feel so alone.
Sometimes I really wonder if this is due to your time management or is everyone the same...

Tonight is another lonely night for me.

Audition ba.

A night out finally

After such a long wait, finally this week has ended.
There goes your 3 papers too.

As planned, we met up at Boon Keng for Steamboat Buffet Dinner.
And then we watched Beowulf and Enchanted at 11.45pm and 2.05am respectively.
However, we didn't have time for shopping and strolling along our first dating place -- Boat Quay.

A bit disappointed.

It's been an extremely long time since we really spent time together alone and communicating. A really long time since we spent some romantic time recollecting our memories.

It's like a symptom of "Dating for too long", like those married couples.

I can't help but to sigh...
And to drop a few tears...

Pathetic.

Boredom!!!

This boredom is really getting to me.

When will I find a job???

I dun wanna stay at home doing household chores, gaming and watching tv. I wanna go out and have fun! But no one is there to accompany me.

Why am I such a pathetic fool?

I understand you are having exams! I'm really trying to be more understanding.
But I'm really just BORED! And I'm really dying to see you...

Good or Bad leading?

People always say "Remember the Good points of a person instead of the Bad points."

It's definitely easy to say, but when things happen, it's always the Bad points that shine like the stars...
Let me list out your Good and Bad points.

Good Points
+ Patient with me
+ Always giving in to me
+ Able to withstand my temper
+ Will not scold or beat me
+ I'm of your priority (apart from your studies)
+ Faithful
+ Devoted
+ Love me
+ Caring
+ Responsible
+ Dependable
+ Willing to let me vent my anger on

Bad Points
- Not romantic
- No surprises
- Vulgar
- Old man
- Not presentable
- No initiative
- No enthusiasm
- Rough
- Lack of social etiquette
- Lazy
- Cannot please my parents
- Gambler (when with the "right" friends)
- Don't know how to coax me

Similarities
+ Like to play games
+ Love sex
+ Same school
+ Same age
+ Same race
+ Same nationality

Differences between us
- I like English, and you dialects
- I behave in an educated way, and you "ah pei"
- Everything else!

Wow... Heartache!

I took 2 years to realise all these...

Drifting apart

We are really drifting apart...
Sometimes I really wonder if our personality is too different.

I'm really getting impatient.
A lot of things I expect you to know and to do.
Empty.
You always disappoint me.

I'm getting sick and tired of your apologies.
Seriously it means nothing to me anymore.
Coz you are always doing and saying it repeatedly.
It has become an escape for you.

I think apart from making love, we have nothing more in common.
It's really a torture!

I'm grown so much older even since I'm with you.
When can u stop agitating me and meet my expectations?
When can you really put in your heart for our relationship?
I don't know how much longer I can close my eyes...

2nd Upper -- Good Enough!

I'm really happy!!!

I've gotten my 2nd Upper!!!

Though it's a little disappointing to let go of my dream 1st Class.

But... No Regrets!

I've worked hard for it.

Muacks!

What should I be???

My life is so boring...
I am in a very lousy mood.

NO.

An extremely lousy mood.

I just shouted at Dear and hung up on him again.
I'm sorry.

But I really feel no one understands me.

I'm sick of my life.
Doing nothing everyday.
There are no job interviews.
What should I do?
I really don't know.

I don't want to be playing games everyday.
I don't want to be slacking everyday.
I feel so lousy!

I wanna go out and have fun.
But where should I go?

I wanna accomplish something.
But what should I do?

Now that I had graduated.
What should I be???

Depressing Comment

A few days back, Dear and me went to meet up with Liwah.
Purpose is to get the 70 PSP games from her.

During our dinner, we had some conversation...
Then suddenly...

"RING RING... ... ..."

Dear's phone rang and he started chatting.
I felt so embarrassed when Dear's mouth opened.
Liwah was shocked too.

Why?

Coz Dear immediately turned into an "AH PEI"!
Haiz...
His behaviour, his words, his actions and his languages.
I seriously am at a loss of how to react.

Then Liwah ask "When you go out with him and he behave like that, dun u feel embarrassed?"

Seriously, yes. I do feel embarrassed at times.
I am only 22, so is he.
But he doesn't behave like one.

He simply acts or imitates his friends.
They are young too.
But no one can tell.
They behave extremely OLD.
Anyone can simply guess they are 30.

I did asked him to change.
But no matter wad I say, he won't change.
These are so integrated into him.
How to change???

But when we just started dating, he wasn't like that.
Neither was he like that before we got together.

Why the sudden change???
I dunno.

Among all my friends who are attached, their boyfriends are at least decent looking with an educated behaviour.
My boyfriend???
DIFFERENT!

I think only my JC clicks can tolerate him.

What to do???

I'm afraid there'll be a day where I will 'xian qi' him because of this.

A New Start

I'm starting this blog because there are some issues which I cannot post to the public.

Or rather to the people I know.

So...

This is TOP SECRET!